Are you the ONE?

"Love is a fire.
But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house,
you can never tell."
~ Joan Crawford ~

There is always some madness in love.
But there is also always some reason in madness.
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~

"Love is the flower you've got to let grow."
~John Lennon~

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Bible
~I Corinthians 13:4-8~

Jatuh Cinta...

Jadi inget lagu: jatuh cinta..berjuta rasanya....

Tapi ternyata cinta itu tidak seindah seperti yang dikira karena 'keputusan' untuk jatuh cinta bisa menimbulkan berbagai resiko, well setidaknya itu yang sedang kualami.
Perjalanan cinta kami tidaklah semudah membalikan telapak tangan, jatuh cinta trus jadian... karena ada beberapa hal/situasi di sekeliling kami (atau aku) yang cukup complicated but hey when I decided, everything is going smoothly... maybe not that smoothly kalau dari cara pandang orang lain. I learned which one is a true friend and which one is not, I learned a lot how to make a relationship with them and then of course I learned how to know myself better and people around me... What a life! I really enjoying and grateful to Almighty God :-)

10 Signs He's Not the One

1. You have a list of things he needs to stop doing/saying/wearing if he wants your relationship to work. If you're fixating on his flaws, he's either not the one you want or you're not ready for a serious relationship. Cutting him loose allows you time to grow and gives you the opportunity to meet a guy whose flaws you can embrace -- or at least accept.

2. You don't trust him. A small dose of jealousy can be healthy, but if you're hacking into his email account, and going berserk when he goes out without you, something's wrong. If there's something about him that truly warrants your distrust, then perhaps he's not the right one for you.

3. You avoid conflict at any cost. Fighting is healthy. And, when done right (in the non-accusatory, rational sort of way), it can be a great way to air grievances, fix problems in your relationship, and come to a deeper understanding of each other. Ignoring problems is not the same as having no problems at all... even if it looks that way.

4. When you're sad, you don't turn to him for comfort. When you're a giant ball of tears and snot, do you lock yourself into the bathroom so he can't see you at your worst? If you're worried about scaring him away, one of you isn't ready for total commitment. Mr. Right should make you smile through your tears and be a calming, not stressful, presence.

5. One of you is struggling with an addiction. He's sweet. He's exciting. He loves you very much. But he loves his alcohol habit or his weekly gambling fix more. Don't fool yourself into thinking that you can change him or that your relationship will be strong enough to withstand the heartache that addiction will inevitably bring. An addict may be able to change, but he'll do so on his own terms.

6. You can't really imagine him as the father of your children. Ask yourself: Would he make a great parent? Is he financially responsible? Would he be an equal partner in your future together? If you have doubts, he's probably not the one.

7. Your long-term, non-negotiable goals in life are incompatible. You want kids; he doesn't. You go to church every week; he's an atheist. He lives in the country and doesn't want to move; you can't imagine ever leaving the city. Superficial differences can be overcome, but differences in basic values are harder to smooth over. Ask yourself: "Would I be willing to compromise on this?" If the answer is absolutely not, you may not be right for each other.

8. You don't respect each other. He puts you down in front of your friends and complains about you to his parents. You roll your eyes when he talks because there's just something about him that embarrasses you. A relationship without respect can't sustain itself.

9. You're not attracted to him. Physical intimacy is a hugely important component of a romantic relationship. If he doesn't do it for you, he's probably not your best long-term match.

10. On paper he seems great, but you have this strange feeling... Don't ignore your gut. You may get along on a superficial level, but if your instincts are telling you he's not the one for you, listen. That little voice inside your head does not lie.

In love or distracted?

I'm in love!!! I can feel that... tadinya aq berpikir bahwa dia akan menjadi harapan terakhir dan menjadi satu-satunya di hatiku (walaupun aq tetep kangen banget sama dia) tetapi kenyataan dia lebih sering mengecewakanku terutama akhir-akhir ini :(

Dan...entah dari mana datanglah dia yang baru ini. Mengapa saat pertama aq merasa penasaran dan kami pun lanjut chatting sampai suatu malam, kami terlibat dalam chatting yang cukup intensif sampai terjadi perubahan pada dirinya. I'm very surprised and so is he... Sepotong pembicaraan kami ternyata dapat mengubah cara pandangnya, ya, aq berharap dia benar-benar berubah dan bukan hanya untuk mengejar sesuatu dariku. Somehow, deep inside, aq tahu dia orang yang baik dan saat ini dia sedang dalam proses dan mungkin saja it's time for him.

Terus terang ada banyak hal yang kupertimbangkan untuk melangkah lebih lanjut dengannya...masa lalunya sedikit mengangguku. Aq sangat menghargai kejujurannya di awal, sesuatu yang tidak kusangka akan dilakukannya dan mengingatkanku pada seseorang yang bersikap kebalikannya dan selalu menutupi sesuatu bahkan sampai saat ini! Jadi, bisakah aq menerima dia apa adanya? Pilihannya tidak terlalu berbeda jauh...yang aneh adalah sampai saat ini aq masih datar terhadap seseorang yang lain dengan segala kelebihan yang dimilikinya. Dia, yang baru ini, atau dia yang hampir kutetapkan, sangat jauh dibandingkan dengannya tetapi perasaan tak bisa dipaksakan...

Aq hanya ingin berdoa, menenangkan diri dan mencoba menelaah gerangan apa maksud di balik ini? Apakah ini sebuah ujian ataukah sebuah petunjuk? Apa yang kuminta, hampir mendekati sering terkabul sehingga aq harus berhati-hati dalam berucap dan memohon. Setiap pilihan selalu memiliki resiko. Can I take the risk?

"...I'm just the girl...just an ordinary people who wants to be happy like you..."

Kangen

Iya beneran, kangen banget... I miss you so much!! xoxo

Part of my silliness, falling in love with a guy from virtual :D but I can feel that the feeling is growing and he become my habit. Sad is he has so much limited, I try to understand his situation but I read that book!! "He's not just into You" So I know I get trapped in that situation, I know that some part of me trying to 'normalizer' but my logic side said, 'hey, you ain't that stupid, girl!'

But then I still keep the feeling and put my hope in behind. That hope is more dangerous I think because my imagination will be full of that hope, that dream, etc.. I'm just an ordinary girl who want to fall in love and be happy